mottaloo Posted April 10, 2020 Share Posted April 10, 2020 (edited) 21 hours ago, Xela said: I think this weekend will be tough. Hot weather and being in lockdown. I know i've said it before but I really need to move and get somewhere with a garden. Think it would be good for my mental health as well. And you will in time mate, it's part of ur long term plan. If this virus has taught me one thing it's to be more appreciative of things i took for granted. Not just the facilities, things to do, sutton park across the way for you etc.,......more like the fact i can get around.....that is, I'm not wheelchair bound or terminally ill (ok, I'm in remission for cancer and it's looking promising). Al....this isn't a pop at you cos you're clued up and quite a modest, amiable dude. I used to live in a flat for a while and missed my own garden. Just remember that this will end and in no time you'll be back abusing those in jogging bottoms before you know it Edited April 10, 2020 by mottaloo 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
leighavfc Posted April 10, 2020 Share Posted April 10, 2020 Well after another topsy turvy day at home with the missus and kids, i think i have stumbled across my problem/issue.... im fairly certain i am Bipolar... now i havent had any medical professional confirm this at this stage but after reading a fair bit about it tonight, i would say i have about 90% of the signs/symptoms. Ive stated in a couple of threads on VT that me and my partner havent been great in recent months, over the past few weeks its worse.... a lpt of it for no reason at all tbh. The lockdown obviously has a bearing on this as we are under each others feet all the time at the minute, a lot more so than ever before. Today i havent been in a bad mood but ive just been really irritable and unnecessarily been an arse most of the day without anything to put it down too or anything triggering it. Im up and down like a yoyo, im extremely amgry and frustrated at the stupidest things, ive had massive substance issues over the years, been batshit mental with money as far as i can remember. For me there are just so many signs that point in the bipolar direction. Again i would say being on lockdown is probably bringing these issues out more than normal but generally i am like this pretty regularly. I think i need to see a professional and get myself sorted. Ive been clean from substances for 41 days now, without any help other than willpower! I have also quit the fags too. Both of these are truely massive for me and my life.. i cant stress that enough. Dont get me wrong though i have been so tempted to go back to the them still, the past few days have been mega tough for some reason... probably to do with the lockdown and boredem. Anyone else here been diagnosed or experienced similar? 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
snowychap Posted April 10, 2020 Share Posted April 10, 2020 49 minutes ago, leighavfc said: Well after another topsy turvy day at home with the missus and kids, i think i have stumbled across my problem/issue.... im fairly certain i am Bipolar... now i havent had any medical professional confirm this at this stage but after reading a fair bit about it tonight, i would say i have about 90% of the signs/symptoms. Ive stated in a couple of threads on VT that me and my partner havent been great in recent months, over the past few weeks its worse.... a lpt of it for no reason at all tbh. The lockdown obviously has a bearing on this as we are under each others feet all the time at the minute, a lot more so than ever before. Today i havent been in a bad mood but ive just been really irritable and unnecessarily been an arse most of the day without anything to put it down too or anything triggering it. Im up and down like a yoyo, im extremely amgry and frustrated at the stupidest things, ive had massive substance issues over the years, been batshit mental with money as far as i can remember. For me there are just so many signs that point in the bipolar direction. Again i would say being on lockdown is probably bringing these issues out more than normal but generally i am like this pretty regularly. I think i need to see a professional and get myself sorted. Ive been clean from substances for 41 days now, without any help other than willpower! I have also quit the fags too. Both of these are truely massive for me and my life.. i cant stress that enough. Dont get me wrong though i have been so tempted to go back to the them still, the past few days have been mega tough for some reason... probably to do with the lockdown and boredem. Anyone else here been diagnosed or experienced similar? Don't try and diagnose yourself. Get a professional to do it and expect that the professional in question will do a proper job (i.e. they won't tell you are something that they don't believe you are). 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
leighavfc Posted April 10, 2020 Share Posted April 10, 2020 (edited) 14 minutes ago, snowychap said: Don't try and diagnose yourself. Get a professional to do it and expect that the professional in question will do a proper job (i.e. they won't tell you are something that they don't believe you are). No i do agree totally, i wasnt trying to diagnose myself (although i see your point from my original post) i kind of just stumbled across the similarities of me and the signs of bipolar after a neighbour talking about a relative having been diagnosed recently. I will be 100% seeing somebody as soon as its possible to do so. From what i have read from various sources this evening, the signs/symptoms just absolutely ring true to me in so many ways.i read the articles as if they were talking about me it was that close to me and my life... Like you say thats for a professional to give me that answer about what it actually is... if it is anything of course! hopefully they will answer a few questions i have had about myself for years and years... ive always just put it down to me just being a word removed in some shape or form tbh. Its time for me to get to the bottom of it whatever that is and i can do something about it going forward. Edited April 10, 2020 by leighavfc 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
foreveryoung Posted April 10, 2020 Share Posted April 10, 2020 1 hour ago, leighavfc said: No i do agree totally, i wasnt trying to diagnose myself (although i see your point from my original post) i kind of just stumbled across the similarities of me and the signs of bipolar after a neighbour talking about a relative having been diagnosed recently. I will be 100% seeing somebody as soon as its possible to do so. From what i have read from various sources this evening, the signs/symptoms just absolutely ring true to me in so many ways.i read the articles as if they were talking about me it was that close to me and my life... Like you say thats for a professional to give me that answer about what it actually is... if it is anything of course! hopefully they will answer a few questions i have had about myself for years and years... ive always just put it down to me just being a word removed in some shape or form tbh. Its time for me to get to the bottom of it whatever that is and i can do something about it going forward. Being Bi-Polar your very black and white, no middle ground from my experience, an ex partner was Bi-polar, never really diagnosed but I read up about it most of the time I was with her, which was around 4-5 years. She was very intellectual but wasted her knowledge, could never hold down a job and got bored very easy, TV was not the way to pass the time, apparently. I remember the time she went to see a psychiatrist and she made him cry, as he wanted to go through her life, which she replied "your reading it out of a **** book, I need experience, not to bring my shit life back up"! I guess what i'm saying is, if you need to be diagnosed you need a experienced mature person not some pre pubic lad who has just stepped out of uni. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rjw63 Posted April 11, 2020 Share Posted April 11, 2020 Trying to ignore the chavs making lockdown racket, always the same type of shit music, always in the garden. I dream of petrol bombing the words removed, seriously. But I wouldn't want to **** my wife's life up so I just think of the day we can finally sell up and **** off. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mottaloo Posted April 11, 2020 Share Posted April 11, 2020 10 minutes ago, rjw63 said: Trying to ignore the chavs making lockdown racket, always the same type of shit music, always in the garden. I dream of petrol bombing the words removed, seriously. But I wouldn't want to **** my wife's life up so I just think of the day we can finally sell up and **** off. They're trailer trash. The males should be chemically castrated so no more breeding, or like you say, obliterate the vermin. I had similar neighbours a few years ago but luckily they pissed the landlord off by not paying the rent & were swiftly kicked out.....unfortunately to probably turn out somewhere else & create more havoc. I wish you well mate 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KHV Posted April 11, 2020 Share Posted April 11, 2020 On 09/04/2020 at 16:30, Xela said: I think this weekend will be tough. Hot weather and being in lockdown. I know i've said it before but I really need to move and get somewhere with a garden. Think it would be good for my mental health as well. I don’t have a garden either so I have been going to Sutton Park I’m lucky to have it 3 mins from where I live 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted April 11, 2020 VT Supporter Share Posted April 11, 2020 8 minutes ago, KHV said: I don’t have a garden either so I have been going to Sutton Park I’m lucky to have it 3 mins from where I live Yep same here. I'm a 5-10 minute walk from the park. Been heading there every day for a walk or run. It's keeping me sane. I still can't be arsed to go every single day But as soon as I'm out I'm so glad I've done it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KHV Posted April 11, 2020 Share Posted April 11, 2020 4 minutes ago, Stevo985 said: Yep same here. I'm a 5-10 minute walk from the park. Been heading there every day for a walk or run. It's keeping me sane. I still can't be arsed to go every single day But as soon as I'm out I'm so glad I've done it I was really surprised how quiet it was today. I went via the Boldmere gate around lunchtime. I feared the worst expecting to see loads of people about being as the weather was so good. I was walking the dog and only saw other dog walkers, cyclists and runners. Didn’t see any groups bigger than groups of two and that wasn’t many to be honest. Having said that M&S and Pets at Home we’re really quiet at Beggars Bush too Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted April 11, 2020 VT Supporter Share Posted April 11, 2020 9 minutes ago, KHV said: I was really surprised how quiet it was today. I went via the Boldmere gate around lunchtime. I feared the worst expecting to see loads of people about being as the weather was so good. I was walking the dog and only saw other dog walkers, cyclists and runners. Didn’t see any groups bigger than groups of two and that wasn’t many to be honest. Having said that M&S and Pets at Home we’re really quiet at Beggars Bush too Yeah yesterday was worse. I did a big walk yesterday so saw a lot of the park and I saw a few picnics. I think they were all people from the same house to be fair. but still shouldn't be doing it. Biggest thing I've noticed is cyclists in the park. The park is definitely quieter, but I've never seen so many people riding bikes around there! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KHV Posted April 11, 2020 Share Posted April 11, 2020 Just now, Stevo985 said: Yeah yesterday was worse. I did a big walk yesterday so saw a lot of the park and I saw a few picnics. I think they were all people from the same house to be fair. but still shouldn't be doing it. Biggest thing I've noticed is cyclists in the park. The park is definitely quieter, but I've never seen so many people riding bikes around there! I was thinking of getting a bike again myself although it’s been a while since I have done any cycling! It certainly helps me mentally being in the park. I dread to think how badly I would be climbing the walls if I did not have it to escape to. I’ve always taken Sutton Park for granted having grown up in Sutton, it really is a wonderful place. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted April 11, 2020 VT Supporter Share Posted April 11, 2020 (edited) 3 minutes ago, KHV said: I was thinking of getting a bike again myself although it’s been a while since I have done any cycling! It certainly helps me mentally being in the park. I dread to think how badly I would be climbing the walls if I did not have it to escape to. I’ve always taken Sutton Park for granted having grown up in Sutton, it really is a wonderful place. Yeah I'm the same. I've been there more in the past 3 weeks than I have in the rest of the time I've lived here put together, and I've lived here for 3 and a half years! It's a beautiful place. I walked up the north of the park the other day, kind of around Bracebrigde pool. I saw rabbits, I saw cows grazing, I saw wild ponies bathing in the pool and I saw deer hiding in the bushes. In **** Birmingham Edited April 11, 2020 by Stevo985 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vive_La_Villa Posted April 14, 2020 Share Posted April 14, 2020 I never thought I’d be so gutted about them closing my local park. Hopefully they will open it again soon. Not sure about anybody else but I’ve drinking a lot more than I usually do during this lockdown. Pretty constant too. Haven’t had a drink today and feel really low. I suspect the next few days will be difficult. I know it’s difficult for everybody. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tomaszk Posted April 14, 2020 Share Posted April 14, 2020 42 minutes ago, Vive_La_Villa said: I never thought I’d be so gutted about them closing my local park. Hopefully they will open it again soon. Not sure about anybody else but I’ve drinking a lot more than I usually do during this lockdown. Pretty constant too. Haven’t had a drink today and feel really low. I suspect the next few days will be difficult. I know it’s difficult for everybody. It's so convenient, thus very tough yes. Had to stop buying it at the supermarket as it was getting drunk too fast. Got a single can other day as a treat as it was a new one I hadn't seen and (fortunately?) didn't really like it. I've got a beer52 delivery a month, so around 8-12 beers. Put the last lot away in about 3 days But I'm not buying any more in bulk from the supermarket until this is over. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Lifeboats Posted April 20, 2020 Share Posted April 20, 2020 I think I have hit crisis point. I just can’t face going into work. There’s a growing resentment between the employees working in the office and those at home. Those at home are all perceived to be sitting in their gardens with a cappuccino and croissant and doing half the work of the poor sods going into the office. To make matters worse people going in have to pay their own travel and parking costs. People at home have just been given a small monthly increase in pay to cover their extra home costs. The atmosphere is toxic. Everyone is stressed. No-one has a holiday to look forward to. I’ve had a couple of minor panic attacks. It feels terrible to let people down but I am not going to ruin my long term mental health. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jon Posted April 21, 2020 Share Posted April 21, 2020 2 hours ago, Mandy Lifeboats said: I think I have hit crisis point. I just can’t face going into work. There’s a growing resentment between the employees working in the office and those at home. Those at home are all perceived to be sitting in their gardens with a cappuccino and croissant and doing half the work of the poor sods going into the office. To make matters worse people going in have to pay their own travel and parking costs. People at home have just been given a small monthly increase in pay to cover their extra home costs. The atmosphere is toxic. Everyone is stressed. No-one has a holiday to look forward to. I’ve had a couple of minor panic attacks. It feels terrible to let people down but I am not going to ruin my long term mental health. Why are some people still having to physically go into the office? What line of work is it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KentVillan Posted April 21, 2020 Share Posted April 21, 2020 On 10/04/2020 at 21:09, leighavfc said: Well after another topsy turvy day at home with the missus and kids, i think i have stumbled across my problem/issue.... im fairly certain i am Bipolar... now i havent had any medical professional confirm this at this stage but after reading a fair bit about it tonight, i would say i have about 90% of the signs/symptoms. Ive stated in a couple of threads on VT that me and my partner havent been great in recent months, over the past few weeks its worse.... a lpt of it for no reason at all tbh. The lockdown obviously has a bearing on this as we are under each others feet all the time at the minute, a lot more so than ever before. Today i havent been in a bad mood but ive just been really irritable and unnecessarily been an arse most of the day without anything to put it down too or anything triggering it. Im up and down like a yoyo, im extremely amgry and frustrated at the stupidest things, ive had massive substance issues over the years, been batshit mental with money as far as i can remember. For me there are just so many signs that point in the bipolar direction. Again i would say being on lockdown is probably bringing these issues out more than normal but generally i am like this pretty regularly. I think i need to see a professional and get myself sorted. Ive been clean from substances for 41 days now, without any help other than willpower! I have also quit the fags too. Both of these are truely massive for me and my life.. i cant stress that enough. Dont get me wrong though i have been so tempted to go back to the them still, the past few days have been mega tough for some reason... probably to do with the lockdown and boredem. Anyone else here been diagnosed or experienced similar? Gave this a like for the 41 days without substances - nice one. You’re doing the right thing on that front, and it sounds like by doing that you’re building the foundations for doing the right thing with your mental health, by speaking to a specialist. Keep your chin up, you’re doing well. Do you have any hobbies or interests that can help with the boredom? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
leighavfc Posted April 24, 2020 Share Posted April 24, 2020 On 21/04/2020 at 06:46, KentVillan said: Gave this a like for the 41 days without substances - nice one. You’re doing the right thing on that front, and it sounds like by doing that you’re building the foundations for doing the right thing with your mental health, by speaking to a specialist. Keep your chin up, you’re doing well. Do you have any hobbies or interests that can help with the boredom? Hi mate, hope your well? Thanks, im surprised at how well i have done tbh! Longest attempt in many years so far so thats another milestone for me. Although i have just posted in the drugs thread about craving for sniff the past few days which has been driving me absolutely crazy.... very nearly gave in earlier but didnt in the end thank god. Feeling a bit depressed that i didnt and kicking myself for not getting it whilst i could... of course im just being frigging stupid about it and have started to calm down a little. Dont know where its come from as i dont do much of the stuff really although had short periods of higher usage over the years but normally just a few times a year on big day or nights out. I think maybe the boredem of the lockdown is kicking in big time and im starting to struggle with the same continuous routines etc. The weather being so good too is just fuelling my urge i think too! Yeah as soon as i can see a specialist im going too as so many signs or symptoms i can relate too. Will have a much better idea of whether of whats going on! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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