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  1. My mental health issues all stem from years of drug use and abuse tbh. I don’t want to take anything away from those who genuinely suffer day to day without substance abuse, mine is self inflicted totally..... i have tried to get sectioned and taken out of society a few times now... the reason being I’m a danger to myself and others also. Because of the drugs and my addiction they won’t section me at all which I understand to an extent....they say its the drugs making me feel that way... I’m getting to the point where I will be the next suicide stat though..... and I feel as if my drug use is me slowly trying to kill myself. i want out from the pain I’m in and causing everybody, I do N/A 4 times a week amd it’s just not enough to stop me. I genuinely want to die and stop the pain... that’s not a realistic option but I don’t know what else to do... my ex partner who works in a&e said I have to literally threaten people to be sectioned. That’s not me at all, I want to harm myself and nobody else. the song take me away by 4 strings says it all for me... take ,e away.... a million miles away from here.
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    Completely goes without saying..... don’t ever touch drugs if you can avoid them. They/I have wrecked my life in every way possible.... it all started out as fun and good times but years later my addiction to them has destroyed everything I ever had. if your reading this and thinking nah they are ok and I’m ok... so did I for many years! Cocaine over the last 12 months has took my relationship, family, home, money.... the lot.... I have even tried to take my life twice In the last 6 months because of it. I’ve done years of using many drugs... pretty much everything bar heroin and crack. Just don’t do it. Don’t be pressured or feel like your left out. It’s complete bulls**t... you may end up like me. You DONT want that I promise you! i do everything I can possible to stay away from them but every time I have money I end up doing them it’s such a sad, low life exsistence ending up like me. I do meetings most nights in an attempt to stop but just cannot for the life of me do so... i was once that guy who was in “control” of my using and have now ended up using any time I have money in my pocket. Please seek help if you you read this and think you may have a problem of any kind. Don’t end up like me! I promise you Thinking/feeling suicidal most days because you can’t get drugs or live a normal life day to day without them is NOT the way to go! all the best all of you who read this but please don’t end up like me, it really isn’t worth that line... or whatever your drug of choice is.
  3. Hi all really struggling too sleep tonight due to a bit of a situation I have got myself into over the last week. Quick background to the situation, I split up with my partner of 13 years around 3 months ago for the second time in last 12 months with a 3 month period of us being together again and trying to make it work. I have struggled with addiction to drugs for a while now but even more so over the last 12 months, resulting In is splitting. This last split she said would be it and there is no turning back and trying again etc as she can’t do it anymore. Basically it’s over for good. i of course was upset and down about it for a few weeks and in denial about it thought it would ease over time and me getting better etc. She is still standing firm about it all and I’ve been taken off tenancy agreement etc this time round so I know she’s not messing. We are getting on well etc and no issues but no talk of relationships etc either. It is still very early into the breakup and too so it’s not all really settled fully as of yet either. A few weeks back my best mate asked me to come to a charity football match he was playing in, during the game I found his missus and went a stood with her and a few women she was stood by. As the game went on I got chatting to one the women and we were having a laugh, bit of flirting etc. I liked her but it never even crossed my mind about anything other than the chat we was having. After the game I was going to go home but a few people said come back to the pub with us, I said to my mate il come back for a coke but I’m going shortly after as I cannot be around alcohol for too long. In the pub we continued chatting and flirting before the convo started to turn to about our love life... she was single and I told her my story... shortly after she said how about I give you my number... I told her that I wasn’t really looking for anybody or dates etc at the moment due to eveything going on. Her reply was too take her number and if and when I’m ready we can maybe arrange something then. For about a week it and she was constantly on my mind. I did like her and we had a good laugh etc on that day... and with my ex constantly reminding me that was it I decided to drop her a text... I knew I would be creating a situation that I could really do without right now. We have been talking a lot via text and phone calls and in all honesty I really really like her, looks, personality everything so far. But I just don’t know whether to pursue it further with a date etc. She’s keen to go on a date etc and part of me really wants to ... but at the same time I also get a vibe off my ex that despite what she says there will be a chance with a lot of work put in etc and in all honesty I never wanted to lose her. Bearing in mind this is just my hunch and nothing has been said to confirm this. I’m just in pure limbo as part of me wants to see what goes on with the new woman as she is somebody I could see things going well with but at the same time that will without any question be the end of me and my previous partner for good.... and I’m not even sure so soon after breaking up I’m ready for anything whilst trying to stay in recovery . im really sorry for the long message, I’ve tried to explain the situation as best as I can, and I know it’s a hard one to maybe advise or offer opinion on as I think I need to decide where I’m at... but any feedback or comments would be appreciated.
  4. Love this! So so true! They say you don't choose Villa.... it chooses you I love this club, made me and my kids very happy today.... and gave me the happiness too get home and get on with the bloody decorating I had postponed to go too the training ground knowing the boys had a few hours too remember!!
  5. I must add that they didn't let us in especially.. you are allowed too go in and park on the car park at the training ground around 12pm on the days the players are training. From what I can gather they go in about 8.30/9 and all leave between 12 and 2ish. On which days they train is the guesswork really but im sure you can ring the club and they will tell you if you ask nicely. I purely guessed and took the chance, being only 20 mins away too made it not too much of a problem if they weren't. The security staff were great too, even when being told I couldn't stand at the end of the road initially it was all done calmfully and respectfully and not made too feel bad, and in the end invited us in too do it safely. By the end of the 2 hours their were around 30 people there. If you have kids or are like @Enda then I recommend it!!
  6. So decided to just go up and see.. In previous times visiting Middleton lakes I had seen people waiting on the corner of the road so decided too park up and do that. Around 10 minutes later a few cars started pulling out, Digne pulled straight up too us....on opposite side of the road shortly followed by a security car as he signed the kids shirts the security bloke approached me too tell me I couldn't stand there and stop the players as it would cause a hazard.. fair point and I asked what I could do... he asked over the radio of we could go on site, which they agreed too! By this point Buendia, Martinez and Mcginn whizzed past us We walked down into the car park and they set some barriers up for us too stand behind alongside another family who had parked in the car park... turns out you are allowed on site after a certain time! Most of the players stopped too be fair and had pics and autographs which the kids were absolutely delighted with and made their day... a few just drove past which was disappointing.. but hey ho it's completely up too them of course! We were there about 2 hours and the security told us when they had all gone home which was good too know. They met Digne, Dendoncker, Moreno, Ramsey, Mings, Duran, Bailey, Watkins, Traore and Kamara. Big props too Jhon Duran who got out the car shook and fist bumped all the kids hands and was really good with them all. The security bloke commented on how the first few times he didn't have a clue what was going on as no-one had asked him for an autograph before. A funny moment whilst Duran was going down the line... my son starts shouting Diego... Diego.. I looked up and said Where's Diego? He says there driving... turns out Durans driver looks a little bit like Diego Carlos All in all really good for the kids, wish we had got there 10/15 mins too see Mcginn etc but will try again another time
  7. Hi all Does anybody have any idea how I can find out when the players are training and at what times? My kids want too get some pics/autographs and I was planning too take them up bodymoor today to wait on the road out of there too try and catch a few if possible
  8. Having a mare this morning!! I've misplaced my lads season ticket card somewhere and can't for the life of me find it I rang the ticket office yesterday and asked them too send me a paper ticket for todays game whilst I looked for it. They said they would email the ticket over too me or the lead booker of our season tickets... neither of us have recieved anything as of yet!!!! The phone line aren't open today either!! Does anybody know if the is ticket office open today before the game? The only other thing I can think of is they have printed me a ticket off and left it at one of the collection kiosks too pick up.. anybody had too do that before? Does anybody know what time the kiosks open? Don't want too make my way too the game with my lad and there be a problem and him not being able too get in
  9. Yep totally agree! I loved Ronaldinho and would actually say I a little more joy out of watching him than Messi. Unfortunately I think the way his career went downhill so to speak at a younger age then many of the rest probably keeps him out the discussion of the best ever. Technically wise probably edges Messi as the best ever though!
  10. Going to sit down and finally watch the Messi documentary on the iPlayer tonight. For me, not only my favourite player of my lifetime so far but in my opinion probably the best to have ever played the game. It got me interested in other peoples opinions, especially those who have lived through all or many of the suggested players time and careers. I'm 34 so I would say in my lifetime the contenders would be R9, CR7, Zidane, Messi, Ronaldinho. You then have too obviously add to that list Pele, Maradona, Cruyff, Di Stefano...would anybody add any others in to that list? Now I have only seen footage, documentaries and various other bits of these players but admittedly as an avid football fan I have watched a lot of this kind of stuff on them all so would like to think I have a fair idea of how good they were. Obviously seeing these players live regularly would be a big a big help to my opinion! There are a hell of a lot of caveats and arguments for each player, also peoples opinions of what makes a certain player the greatest vary's too which makes the whole debate interesting to me! I fortunately have had the pleasure to see all the modern day players I mentioned above live a few times and of course they are all amazing once in a generation players for their own reasons. I wish I could have seen some of the older generation players too! Without trying to be biased and looking at it with an open mind...it's Messi for me as the greatest of all time. What he can do with a ball, the vision, all kinds of different types of goals, being almost a one man team at times, being totally unplayable against on his day just being a few of my reasonings. I'm fairly certain that in my lifetime we will not see another player like him either. So who is yours? Mods: apologies if there is already a thread on this, please merge mine into that if there is!
  11. That ball to Watkins in the first half
  12. I would agree with that too, but I think or at least hope the next appointment would have those qualities alongside being a bigger name than Deano was or will be.
  13. PL experience is not needed in my opinion, we just absolutely need a manager who can coach a team and knows a bit about tactics to set us up to our strengths and build from there. Gerrard absolutely had none of these qualities in my opinion. Setup and tactics are everything in the game this day and age!
  14. I think it's a tough choice for the Villa heirachy this one. I'm glad it's not me having to make this decision! I think it's clear that Poch and Tuchel are in most of our top 3 choices. Going off the rumours it sounds like both of them have turned us down or are not keen. The more I think about it, the more I think they are just out of reach for us this time round. A week ago I thought they would be gettable with the project and everything else we can offer but now I'm just not sure either would take it. For me I think we need to be looking at a manager for the mid term so to speak, getting us up to the top 10 over the next couple of seasons and then maybe going for that higher calibre manager from there if we felt like we needed too. Based on that alone I think the more realistic appointments are: Emery, AVB, Dyche, Rodgers and maybe somebody like Hassenhuttl. We then have Amorim who potentially is very exciting and a top manager in the making, I just have this horrible feeling if we paid the world record compo for him that it would just be so Villa for it to go badly wrong quickly. Based on what he has done so far though he would definitely be in my top 2 choices. There will be lots of other managers out there who could do a job for us of course, but to my knowledge those few are realistically the ones we should be looking at. Emery or Amorim would be the 2 I would go for first before moving onto any of the rest in my list.
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