Rugeley Villa Posted October 3, 2014 Share Posted October 3, 2014 peace man . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xann Posted March 10, 2015 Share Posted March 10, 2015 Irish VTers banging the E's then? 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corcaigh Posted March 10, 2015 Share Posted March 10, 2015 There was a glorious, if rather hazy, period here in the mid 2000s when Magic Mushrooms could be bought over the counter in your local friendly neighbourhood Head shop. Then that word removed Harney banned them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
leemond2008 Posted March 10, 2015 Share Posted March 10, 2015 a while back when my hip was really playing me up the doctor prescribed me about 250 co dydramol tablets, stong ones as well. needless to say about 200 of them tablets me and my mate used for cold water extraction, themz were good times Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maqroll Posted March 11, 2015 Share Posted March 11, 2015 Sometimes I think if I reach the age of 80, I'm just gonna go on a massive drug binge. Hopefully by then it's all legal, controlled and high quality. I'd dabble in just about everything. Excluding LSD, ketamine, meth and crack. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bickster Posted March 11, 2015 Moderator Share Posted March 11, 2015 Sometimes I think if I reach the age of 80, I'm just gonna go on a massive drug binge. Hopefully by then it's all legal, controlled and high quality. I'd dabble in just about everything. Excluding LSD, ketamine, meth and crack. Odd that you'd include LSD with the other 3 I reckon that if you are 80, acid is the perfect drug 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lapal_fan Posted March 11, 2015 Share Posted March 11, 2015 Anyone see John Snow having a go? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted March 11, 2015 VT Supporter Share Posted March 11, 2015 Anyone see John Snow having a go? It was embarrassing. You'd think he'd been tortured by the way he reacted. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maqroll Posted March 11, 2015 Share Posted March 11, 2015 Sometimes I think if I reach the age of 80, I'm just gonna go on a massive drug binge. Hopefully by then it's all legal, controlled and high quality. I'd dabble in just about everything. Excluding LSD, ketamine, meth and crack. Odd that you'd include LSD with the other 3 I reckon that if you are 80, acid is the perfect drug Maybe, but there's something about it that scares the hell out of me 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xann Posted March 13, 2015 Share Posted March 13, 2015 Palcohol: US regulators approve powdered alcohol that can be mixed with water, snorted or sprinkled onto cereal Independent Yes!.. Er... No!... Er... What? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
leemond2008 Posted March 13, 2015 Share Posted March 13, 2015 Palcohol: US regulators approve powdered alcohol that can be mixed with water, snorted or sprinkled onto cereal Independent Yes!.. Er... No!... Er... What? Snorting alcohol sounds strange...don't get me wrong I'd definitely try it but it just seems like a weird idea to me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AVFCforever1991 Posted March 13, 2015 Share Posted March 13, 2015 Palcohol: US regulators approve powdered alcohol that can be mixed with water, snorted or sprinkled onto cereal Independent Yes!.. Er... No!... Er... What? It's an interesting one, the actual physical act of snorting something may now become an accepted method of ingestion, just like drinking.. Obviously a very very very long way to go for it to be accepted, but in terms of drug legalisation, it could be an important step. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maqroll Posted March 13, 2015 Share Posted March 13, 2015 Palcohol: US regulators approve powdered alcohol that can be mixed with water, snorted or sprinkled onto cereal Independent Yes!.. Er... No!... Er... What? Snorting alcohol sounds strange...don't get me wrong I'd definitely try it but it just seems like a weird idea to me I can't imagine sniffing alcohol powder feels good at all, in fact it probably burns the mucus membrane of your nostrils right off Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mjmooney Posted March 14, 2015 VT Supporter Share Posted March 14, 2015 I expect craft beer suppositories will be the next big hipster thing. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post Rugeley Villa Posted April 19, 2015 Popular Post Share Posted April 19, 2015 (edited) just thought id post my shit but would just like to say its great waking up in the morning when you aint been shoving coke up your nose and booze down your throat, by mid day though my cravings will come. anyway for the past 6 to 8 months ive been heavily using cocaine again, which escalated to me spening roughley between 150 and over 200 quid a week on it. in that time period i have done cocaine every week apart from 3 of those weeks and its became a big problem for my partner. im going to take you back before i had my first hit of the drug and my views of the drug, anyway here she goes. cocaine to me was this super cool thing and i really wanted to try it, i mean where most 17 or 18 year olds heroes were footballers or whatever my heroes were and still are to a degree were people like ozzy osbourne(can barely talk) keith moon(dead at 31) jim morrison(dead at 27) these were the people i wanted to emulate and to a degree i sadly did. music was the soundtrack to my life and i was brought up from an early age listening to the music i still listen to now but back when i was 10 or 11 i wernt listening to these bands and thinking i want to get hight to it. something happend which made me think that and what that is i dont know but my music like every other kind of music promoted and sung the praises and despair of drugs. i honestly think i became addicted to cocaine straight away although ive only known im an addict for the past three years or so. when i first started using i would blitz all my money on the drug and would sit up all night using so straight away your seeing addictive behaviour and i just totally fell in love with this drug, i mean it was so bloody good. as the years went on nothing really changed from when i first started using because i was still spending a lot of money on it and even took out a loan to fund my use. i was by this time well known as a drug user and a bit of an hell raiser and had a reputation which got worse as the years went on. then one day i got introduced to the needle and injecting cocaine is on another level compared to snorting it, i mean when people say things and they describe it like an orgasm well thats what banging coke was like for me. it really was that good and i got in a real bad way and ended up hooked on the needle for 5 years, ive got the scars to prove it. there was a group of 5 or 6 of us and one is in prison for murder, two of them are in and out of prison like you would not believe and one of them is so battered by the drugs i dont think he will make 40. i came out the other end with an attractive girl that wants to marry me and two wonderful kids who love their dad so much. and im very lucky in that sense because in reality im lucky to be alive, playing with needles is a great way to cut short your life and it nearly did. ive not said this before on here but back when i was using needles i not knowingly contracted hepatitus c, did i use a dirty needle? i didnt think i did but ay i was that far gone i dont remember and i probaly didnt care plus just sharing spoons put you at big risk. anyway i succesfully got rid of the hep c and got rid of it within 2 months so thank god for that and no lasting damage had been done by the virus so all was cool. its down to my partner how i found out because i was having a lot of stomach pain and she made me go the doctors and the rest is history. when i found out i had it id been clean off the needle for three years so i potentially had it for 7 or 8 years. im over the needle now, it nearly destroyed me and i really was a mess but yes now and again i will imagine putting that needle in my arm and it will excite me but i can honestly say im over that and will never go back. after the needle it was straight back to snorting and i will just fast forward to what i am now and that is someone whos brain is totally messed up by cocaine. i take coke to feel normal, i used to hear people say i take this or that and i feel normal. well i did not used to get it, i mean you take stuff to get high right? well i get it now because when i have that first line i feel exactly how i want to feel and thats with feeling at peace with the world and just so danm happy. i was explaining to my missus the other week how i felt after id just snorted my first line that night and i didnt feel off my head( thats comes after a few lines) i felt normal. any worries or negative shit went out the window and i was in love with the world again. but that feeling turns to despair as the night goes on, i crave for that initial feeling off that first line or two so why dont i just leave it at that? because you cant, you WILL use all of the cocaine you have on you and thats just the way it is. as i said cocaine as messed me up in the following..... sex drive when im not using or im trying to quit i lose my sex drive 100% when im using i love sex but nowadays i struggle to keep it up. but yes as a very sexual person a few years back cocaine has turned me into a frump and i hate it. my partner is very understanding and only shags the milk man once a week also my view of sex is not normal because when your using cocaine porn goes with it, well it does in my case and as we know hardcore porn films are not reality when it comes to what we call normal sex so i have a very distorded view of sex and what turns me on. mood swings im terrible to be around when i want to use or im trying to quit, mild depression, no enjoyment in normal day to day life, no enthusiasm for life. sometimes i get very angry and volatile, i can be an horrible bastard. sometimes i get bad anxiety so yeah it all goes hand in hand with what you would expect. social/anti social when ive got a drink in my hand and a bag in my pocket im everyones mate and will be the centre of attention. im the daft sod who makes everyone laugh with my stupid humour and pratical jokes, but as the night progresses i become socially disabled. i hate being around people and i just want to be on my own, paranoia might set in or i just dont feel at ease with other people company. the same will happen the next day i as go through what you call the cocaine crash, i just cant be around people and hate leaving the house. when im off the coke i struggle to do things like goout for a meal with friends and stuff like that. like yesterday we went out for a meal with friends and i was very subdued and its fair to say im not the life and soul at that moment in time. alcohol anyone who thinks they can give up coke or try and give it up and still drink is deluded, i know because ive tried many times and it only worsens your desire for the drug. i love alcohol and i love a drink to unwind but i now have to face not only giving up cocaine but alcohol as well. alcohol with out cocaine anyway is a big no for me as im a bad drunk and if one good thing has come out of cocaine and that is that its stopped me from getting into trouble as much because just on alcohol im a nightmare, on alcohol and cocaine and im under control, just. finances ive spent around 60k probably more in my life on cocoaine so you dont have to be a genius to understand that i have had financial problems on and off because of my cocaine use and the sad thing about it is that while ive had my kids ive wrongly put my family in financial trouble by my cocaine use. when i say trouble i dont mean major im just on about leaving us a bit short. mentally im pretty exhausted from it all but the battle rages on but with my job(have always worked since left school and have never robbed off anyone) which is quite pysical and day to day family like which can be hard work adding an cocaine problem to it leaves me very tired but ay its all my fault so i just deal with it. on a serious note i tried to quit coke the other week but only lasted 11 days and fell off the wagon, my missus was extremely pissec off as my kids wernt well and she wanted me gone. i woke up on the sofa at half 6 to get up for work and i had a feeling i had not had for a very long time and that was that i didnt know wether i wanted to be here or not. i just sat on the sofa with my head in my hands and thought i just dont want to be in this world no more, i had tremendous guilt and knew i had let my family down AGAIN and as an addict i was self pitying and feeling sorry for myself. anyway imanaged to get through the day and get home and talk to my missus. LAST CHANCE and she means it this time, shes had enough and i dont blame her. the two RV'S you have two of me and i think anyone who battles addiction will have that demon inside them who tries to control the good side of that person. im not what you will call a clever person but when it comes to drink and drugs im the master of manipulating people and an situation, and that comes with addiction. im sly and will use whatever power i can to force a situation into my favour with disregard for anyone and anything. but the normal me is a kind thoughtful person who would do anything for anyone and knows the rights and wrongs although i still aint no angel but yeah im a good person and i dont mind admitting it but i have this monkey on my back which i just cant shake off. family life where has dadda gone mom, hes gone up the show baby, oh dadda drink dirty beer again. that was what my lad said the other to my missus. i had arranged to pick my drugs up from up the shop[ so i could pick up my booxe for the night. my son has picked up that i drink alcohol and he picks up that my behaviour changes as well which is really sad and i feel totally embarrased but ay im an addict so bugger everyone else yeah? well thats what ive been saying to my family when im using because im not putting their needs first. being in the same company as your kids when your doing drugs is not good and its certainly not cool, for crying out loud even the dog goes and cowers in the corner when she hears me snorting. animal have a sixth sense and pick upon negative vibes so what im doing is even making the dog feel uneasy. so yes family life has been strained at times and its mostly down to my addiction, my missus is fed up of the kids having to listen to us argue over my cocaine use. i just hope it has not already effected them. next step? well i need help and need to look into whats best for me. ive been to numerous things over the years but never stuck to them, but i honestly believe that big lifestlye changes play a bigger part so im going to sign upto the gym and not put myself in risky situations. there is also a side to me that likes the quieter things in life like reading books and watching films so that will help. also like taking the dog on walks so that will clear my mind, spending quality time with my kids will help me tremendously. the only down side is that music can be a doubled edged sword in the sense that i love it so much but a lot of the time it feeds my craving and puts thoughts and memories in my head that i could do without. listening to sabbath does not help but they are like many other bands a big part of my life so its hard with the music thing. i didnt get into music because of the drugs i got into music because it made me extremely happy so i need to go way back to when i was a kid and find that happiness again. anyway there you have it folks, god bless you all. 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gharperr Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 (edited) Never been in your sitiuation or anyting like it before so nothing to say but Good luck Edited April 19, 2015 by gharperr 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ismail-villa Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Sounds really hard for you, tackling any kind of addiction must be extremely difficult. Wish you well in your future and hopefully you can stop the addictions and get back to being a loveable family man. Best wishes mate. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lapal_fan Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Like many of us have already said ruge, it's a huge shame the effect of a few grams of white chemicals hold of your family and yourself. For your families sake, and especially your health, i hope you manage to overcome this affliction. Have you ever done anything for a charity? I climbed Ben Nevis in March and that was a huge rush for me, knowing not only had i completed a hard physical task, but i also helped people less fortunate than myself doing it. (I paid for the trip, my sponsor money went directly to the charity) 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xela Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Where on earth do you find 150-200 quid a week for the stuff?! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YLN Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 That sounds like a really tough situation. I can offer no advice really, aside from I think you're lucky you have that woman in your life. I think what might separate you from the guys who are in and out of prison is the fact that you have a partner. Women are not necessarily only good for one thing. Behind every good man and all that. You should try to hold on to her as best you can. I know a bit about drugs and how their positive effects usually seem to outweigh any negatives at the time, but in occasional moments of clarity you do tend to see that there are habits within that, that are really unhelpful and damaging. What I would maybe advise is writing a diary. I'm not talking about a 'today I had a ham sandwich for lunch', but a journal of your thoughts. It's an alternative to going to a psychologist. I just really find getting thoughts down on paper (I use a google doc) really helpful. It's just a method of problem solving. Having a conversation with yourself, and transcribing every word. Talk about times you fall, and how you're not going to beat yourself up about it. You obviously enjoy writing, but even above I'm sure there are things you didn't say out of fear of judgement. You can say whatever you like in the journal and talk those issues out with yourself as you go. Maybe not for everyone, but some people don't like NA or AA, or don't feel comfortable there, and can't afford going to a psychologist every week, or even if they can, this is a good way to hold you over between sessions. My doc is called How to Habit. And at the top of it I have a list of habits I'd like to have. And when you fail to do something, you don't get annoyed at yourself, you just write down why you think you failed, and what you'll change tomorrow so that you can have another go at trying to do it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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