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leemond2008 last won the day on May 23 2015

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  1. What is your experience of mental health?

    Well I feel like I'm in the right sort of headspace to revisit this. Without getting too deeply into the work related shit, basically we should be getting a maximum of 10 new claims a week, I worked it out that I had been getting on average of 14 new claims a week for 18 months, and whilst it seemed like I was keeping on top of it, it got to the point where every single call I was taking was someone chasing something that was overdue, I was promising them that I would do it that day to try and stop them from issuing court proceedings against us,I knew full well that it would be at least 2 weeks before I got to look at it, I was basically juggling 250 claims one day I had to put a note on the system which read 'called TPS, when through to voicemail, left message for them to call back' and all of a sudden my whole body froze, I sat there thinking to myself why have I stopped typing, I took a few deep breaths and I still couldn't bring my hands to the keyboard, I got up and walked out, a colleague followed me out and I was nearly in tears to her (and that isn't like me at all, I'm a hard faced bastard) and she told me that I had to speak to them and tell them how I was feeling. Well I told my team leader that I needed to speak with her and she told me how she could see that I'd been struggling, I told her that I wasn't enjoying life purely because of work, I was waking up at 3am thinking about claims that I needed to action, thinking about claims that I had **** up on, thinking about how I couldn't bare to look at certain claims, my weekends were non existent, work was on my mind constantly, I stopped reading books, I stopped playing piano, guitar etc, I ended up watching shit telly and going to bed at 9pm with nothing on my mind other than what I had to face the following day, Friday nights were the worst because I knew I had 3 nights of brooding before I would know what I was going into (again I had broken to the point that I was nearly in tears whilst I was telling her all this) I explained how I have been battered with work more than most over the last 18 months and now those old cases were catching up with me and I couldn't cope with it, she got a woman in who is kind of (but not) from HR and she had a chat with me, I was told how we would work together to get my work up to date, they would switch me off so I wouldn't receive any new work until I was ready for it, it was a clean slate, there was nothing for me to worry about, they actually sent me home from work early and told me to relax, chill out and not worry. I went back to work and they were right, I was given time to get everything in order and it was slowly working, 8 days later I was told that I'd had enough time and I was going to start getting new work, I made my opinion known but it was to no avail, I had worked my way through about 100 of my 250 claims, I tried to explain that I didn't know what was lying in wait in the other 150 claims that I hadn't got around to looking at. Now the funny thing is that where I work has got a massive thing at the minute about 'mental health' and when I approached my team leader she said 'I could tell that you wasn't right and I was going to speak to you about it' now that is all well and good but it took me having an actual breakdown and being physically unable to put a simple note on the system and nearly being in tears and she it was still me who had to approach her, even after that I wasn't given the time required. I'm rambling now and this is all probably incoherent and messy but that just goes to show my state of mind at the minute. I took 4 days holiday last week and it is going to take me at least 1 month to catch up, whilst I was off I have received emails to say that I have had too much litigation against my name, I have too many activities, I have got more documents to review than anyone else on the team (which one would think is understandable considering I've just had 4 days off whilst everyone else on my team have been at work) and I have been told that I have until next Wednesday to get everything bang up to date. When they switched me back on I told them that I had given them there chance and I felt like I had been lied to and the second that I felt like I was losing it again I would be straight up the quacks to get myself signed off because for all their hustle and bustle about 'mental health' they obviously don't care a shit. the lad that I mentioned in my previous posts in this thread summed it up perfectly, he said ' if you watch a cliff fall into the sea there is only two things that can cause that, it is either a massive explosion or it it a gradual erosion over time, they both lead to collapse' I thought I was improving and I'm making a concerted effort to carry on outside of work as normal but I'm struggling like **** at the moment, its getting on top of me again, I wouldn't mind if I had something to fall back onto but I have nothing, I'm a single bloke living in a one bedroom flat and lining off ends meat as it is
  2. Ratings & Reactions: Villa v QPR

    automatics have gone, manager should have tweaked the team following 2 games in quick succession, players need to have a good long hard look at themselves because that just wasn't good enough tonight. no one is above blame tonight.
  3. VillaTalk Deadpool 2018

    Full on Mandela effect here, I thought Ken Dodd died about 3 years ago.
  4. Bloodborne

    Now this is pretty good, the dude has never ever played Bloodborne before, he starts off thinking its easy, it doesn't take long until you can see the frustration building up in him. In the second video he has got to grips with the game and is going on like a bit of a bad boy before accidentally plummeting off the side of a bridge to his death, the look on his face is **** brilliant. p.s. the dude is a bit of a dick but he is surprisingly easy to watch, I actually spent a **** hour watching him play a game that I could have been playing myself.
  5. Bloodborne

    Yeah that's the bit, I know about the room trick (my mate is a huge Dark Souls and Bloodborne fan) I just get bored by that point, I can sit and watch my mate play it for hours but I just lose interest when I have to do it myself.
  6. Fortnite

    Downloaded it today, made it to the final 30 on my first go, not because I was good but because I didn't see a single person, the first person I did see killed me instantly. Had a few more games didn't kill a single person and finished around 50th place, I'm not sure I'll be able to get into this.
  7. Bloodborne

    I always put this on and plan to go all the way on it and really put in the hours, I started it up just last weekend and as always I get up to the bridge with the two werewolves and then I switch it off and never get around to putting it on again, I know that it'll be months until I put it back on and then I'll want to start it up again from scratch. I don't have the stamina for these types of games.
  8. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    I didn't realize how much went into cutting weight before a fight until I watched this. I mean this dude is trying to cut 40lbs which is crazy but I still can't imagine Canelo being in this sort of state when he is boiling down to Canelo weight.
  9. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    I've never been a big fan of Quigg but he really took the fight to Valdes, both came out of it bloody and battered (Valdes lost a few teeth in the process) Quigg was outclassed and was nowhere near winning in the end but he didn't disgrace himself if you ask me, the weight thing is a joke and it happens far too often these days. Like Dr P said he isn't world level, I usually put the kettle on and just half watch his fights, I've never been able to really get myself interested in watching him.
  10. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    Them damn Mexican cows again.
  11. Do you read?

    I'e had this on my book shelf for about 4 months now, haven't got around to reading it yet, the fact that there is a treasure map wrote on an actual napkin in the book is pretty bizarre
  12. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    I've not seen the fight yet (just watching the undercard for it at the minute) but I read that he started slow and it was only in the later rounds that he started breaking Barrera down, I had a feeling that would go long though.
  13. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    When was the last time that the UK needed to do anything dodgy in a HW fight? AJ has dominated and they have never had to pull out all stops to get him the win, I agree that the Takam fight didn't need to be stopped but it was in order to protect AJ's KO streak, the result would have ended up the same. The punch that ended it was one for the highlight reel, even though Wilder was outboxed for most of the night I still tip him to beat AJ, AJ doesn't have any head movement whatsoever and I think that Wilder would be able to fight off the back foot and avoid AJ's power whilst popping out the jab, then when he lands something big AJ will feel it. Although I'm not confident in that. Fury is definitely not a windmill, he's actually a very good boxer with little power for someone of his size
  14. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    lets be honest I don't think anyone was expecting a war there was they, it was more a question of how good Brook looked than anything else
  15. The "Witton Lane" Boxing Chat Thread

    Along with the jab he also has the slight reach advantage as well, it doesn't sound a lot but Wilder seems to have a very long jab. I felt really bad for the White Rhino earlier, 1st round and his eye was split wide open from a clash of heads, he looked in better shape than I've ever seen him as well, real shame that was