villaajax Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Phil Taylor whitewashed The Sky Sports News presenters will be wearing black arm bands. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nicho Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 I'm considering quitting my job without any where to go, I know it's a bad idea but I really really really want to quit. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarewsEyebrowDesigner Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Sell your house, move to Amsterdam and become an artist. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Brumerican Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Phil Taylor whitewashed He is done . MVG won't be as dominant mind you . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AVFCforever1991 Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Phil Taylor whitewashed Bukkake on sky sports these days? 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Popular Post StefanAVFC Posted February 6, 2014 Popular Post Share Posted February 6, 2014 Writing this as a medium to get it off my chest, as well as an open forum for anybody (who is comfortable) to share any experiences as well. Inspired by Stan Collymore tonight on Twitter as well. When Gary Speed died, lots of people came out and said that 'he was the happiest guy around' and they couldn't believe he'd commit suicide. As somebody who'd had no real experience with mental illness, I couldn't believe it either. Surely there would be signs. It was just crazy. I'd been briefly anxious when I was 18 but I put it down to puberty and the realisation I was moving on with my life and going to university. Since then nothing. I went up to Hull for the away game. I was sat in my car waiting to meet my friend when the weirdest feeling hit me. It sounds so OTT but I felt like I going to die, right there. It went on for a bit and did a bit of research; turns out it was a panic attack. Since that point I've had this overwhelming anxiety for a large amount of the time. It gets better and worse but when it's bad, it's awful. What prompts me to write this tonight is that I had another episode (like the one at Hull) while at football training. At one point I picked up my car keys and almost drove to hospital. It sounds ridiculous and irrational but I can't put it any simpler. Now, I've only had 2 of these really bad attacks and my anxiety is directly linked to dying so why the hell would somebody in my position take my life when that\s what I'm scared of. Well (and I'm in no way saying I'm anywhere near that point), I can imagine if you're having panic attacks every night like the one's I have experienced twice then what sort of life is it? If you're constantly worried about dying, isn't it easier to cut out the middle man? Mental illness is absolutely terrifying. Mostly because it's sometimes impossible to spot. Gary Speed could have been feeling utterly awful whenever he was alone, yet cheerful to everybody else. Having a constant war with your brain would wear you down over time. Ask my colleagues. I'm cheerful at work. I'm happy and bubbly with staff and children. I get on with my class really well because I'm silly and lively. No excuses for how I act on here sometimes. I'd act the same whether I felt like this or not. That's my personality I'm afraid . I feel better being able to write everything down. It helps me to talk about it. It winds me up when people cast off mental illness like it doesn't exist. I always thought that it would never hit me. I'm too positive and lively and happy. It's just the irony that it hits me now when everything in my life is going right. I didn't intend for it to turn into a wall of text but get over it . After football tonight I told myself off in the shower for being such an idiot. Have any others felt like this in their early 20's? Or in their life? 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frobisher Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Feeling like it now. A couple of months ago I was in the position you described where I was in a more or less constant state of extreme anxiety. Hyperventilation, chest pain, tears, inflamed skin, racing mind, inability to concentrate on much other than my constant terror. I'm still not better now (whatever that may be), but I am able to relax at times and focus on things other than my worry. I'm a bit (ok, quite a lot) older than you, but I don't think age is a discriminating factor. The main things that have helped me are therapy, dietry changes and, the biggest of all, meditation. You are not being an idiot. And there is no reason to tell yourself off; you wouldn't get angry at yourself for having the flu. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Davkaus Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Once is disturbing, twice in such a short period is a serious problem. Get yourself in to your doctor, they'll probably refer you for a few therapy sessions to review it. It's not something you should ignore or just put up with. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StefanAVFC Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Feeling like it now. A couple of months ago I was in the position you described where I was in a more or less constant state of extreme anxiety. Hyperventilation, chest pain, tears, inflamed skin, racing mind, inability to concentrate on much other than my constant terror. I'm still not better now (whatever that may be), but I am able to relax at times and focus on things other than my worry. I'm a bit (ok, quite a lot) older than you, but I don't think age is a discriminating factor. The main things that have helped me are therapy, dietry changes and, the biggest of all, meditation. You are not being an idiot. And there is no reason to tell yourself off; you wouldn't get angry at yourself for having the flu. See I get the sporadic symptoms more often than not but I can repress them effectively now. It's just the overwhelming sense of dread that terrifies me. Thankfully that's only happened twice. I'm being referred to see a psychologist. And regards to telling myself off, it helps. I just say, 'if you live in constant worry of something that's completely uncontrollable, you'll ruin your life'. Not having a go at myself for being ill Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frobisher Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Feeling like it now. A couple of months ago I was in the position you described where I was in a more or less constant state of extreme anxiety. Hyperventilation, chest pain, tears, inflamed skin, racing mind, inability to concentrate on much other than my constant terror. I'm still not better now (whatever that may be), but I am able to relax at times and focus on things other than my worry. I'm a bit (ok, quite a lot) older than you, but I don't think age is a discriminating factor. The main things that have helped me are therapy, dietry changes and, the biggest of all, meditation. You are not being an idiot. And there is no reason to tell yourself off; you wouldn't get angry at yourself for having the flu. See I get the sporadic symptoms more often than not but I can repress them effectively now. It's just the overwhelming sense of dread that terrifies me. Thankfully that's only happened twice. I'm being referred to see a psychologist. And regards to telling myself off, it helps. I just say, 'if you live in constant worry of something that's completely uncontrollable, you'll ruin your life'. Not having a go at myself for being ill That's good that you're getting some treatment sorted. Fair enough if it helps, I have just found from my experience that the more I fight it, the worse it gets, but we're all different. Good luck I getting it all sorted. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StefanAVFC Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 Feeling like it now. A couple of months ago I was in the position you described where I was in a more or less constant state of extreme anxiety. Hyperventilation, chest pain, tears, inflamed skin, racing mind, inability to concentrate on much other than my constant terror. I'm still not better now (whatever that may be), but I am able to relax at times and focus on things other than my worry. I'm a bit (ok, quite a lot) older than you, but I don't think age is a discriminating factor. The main things that have helped me are therapy, dietry changes and, the biggest of all, meditation. You are not being an idiot. And there is no reason to tell yourself off; you wouldn't get angry at yourself for having the flu. See I get the sporadic symptoms more often than not but I can repress them effectively now. It's just the overwhelming sense of dread that terrifies me. Thankfully that's only happened twice. I'm being referred to see a psychologist. And regards to telling myself off, it helps. I just say, 'if you live in constant worry of something that's completely uncontrollable, you'll ruin your life'. Not having a go at myself for being ill That's good that you're getting some treatment sorted. Fair enough if it helps, I have just found from my experience that the more I fight it, the worse it gets, but we're all different. Good luck I getting it all sorted. Cheers bud, you too. Let me know how things go. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
adw95 Posted February 6, 2014 Share Posted February 6, 2014 (edited) Phil Taylor whitewashed The Sky Sports News presenters will be wearing black arm bands. As will the Liverpool players on Saturday. Edited February 6, 2014 by adw95 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted February 7, 2014 Author VT Supporter Share Posted February 7, 2014 Phil Taylor whitewashed Bukkake on sky sports these days? Have they deliberately shoved Clare Tomlinson at the back so nobody can see her? Olivia Godfrey though <3<3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eames Posted February 7, 2014 Share Posted February 7, 2014 From left to right across the photo....given that I don't know names of them all.... Would, wouldn't, would, would, wouldn't, would, wouldn't, would, wouldn't, wouldn't, would, would, would. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted February 7, 2014 Author VT Supporter Share Posted February 7, 2014 Let's be honest, if push came to shove, the answer would be "would" for all of them. Even Clare. Poor girl. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
drat01 Posted February 7, 2014 Share Posted February 7, 2014 Let's be honest, if push came to shove, the answer would be "would" for all of them. Even Clare. Poor girl. Let's be honest given the typical profile of internet forum users and what they probably look like and what they are into the question is probably "please can I?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stevo985 Posted February 7, 2014 Author VT Supporter Share Posted February 7, 2014 Let's be honest, if push came to shove, the answer would be "would" for all of them. Even Clare. Poor girl. She is 50! ok...? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CarewsEyebrowDesigner Posted February 7, 2014 Share Posted February 7, 2014 Brad Pitt is 50. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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