Something I've seen from everyone after reading through all these threads and has just suddenly hit me. How much this f****** hurts. I don't think the chairman, the manager, the players or even the kit man knows how much this means to us, how much the villa means to us, and how devastated we all are at how far we've fallen. How many of us watch the villa play shit, whinge and whine and then come the weekend, we're behind the team again, excited and hoping for a win purely because we love them so much. Watching last nights performance was heart breaking because I now have completely lost all the optimism I've clung onto, and I genuinely believe this is the season we go, and I've loved watching my team in the premier league since I was a kid. We have a chairman who has a plaything that he thinks he can make a quick buck out of every now and then. A manager who seems to be clinging to the hope that he can really prove himself at this level instead of finally admitting he is out of ideas, and a group of completely uninspired players, who just don't seem as hurt as they should be at losing all the bastard time. I don't want us to be the new Leeds, a has been team in the championship who everybody has forgotten about. I can only hope that something, somehow will change before we inevitably go down and never come back. I just want my Villa back.