I get what you mean..
I also lived and breathed Villa if my life depended on it, I would not miss a game for love nor money, I would get a buzz of excitement before kick off and in build ups to the game etc.
I always felt we could get something from any game.
Sadly for me that feeling also left in 2010.
Since then we have been a team/club on one rapid decline.
Why should we give a shit anymore like we once did just to end up with depression at 5pm.
Villa game would have once seen me cancel everything ensuring I wouldn't miss it. Nowadays after all the years of shit we have had, I don't feel that same love anymore sadly and also follow more sporting interests nowadays that do not leave you feeling so shit come full time.