What about a person that think all these racist thoughts and insults in their mind and perhaps even says them in their own social circles but wouldn’t dare speak them in public as understand the implications? They despise people of a different colour and make decisions in life based on that.
The you get the guy that has grown up, worked with, lived around and has friends of a different colour. Yet in the heat of the moment, emotionally charged and angry, he f**ked up and said something he shouldn’t have and regrets it. But what’s done is done.
The first person is a good guy, second person is forever a racist.