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Liverpool have been shit since Mane went to AFCON. I wonder if they can get their shit together by tuesday for the game v Chelsea.

Not at the moment. But I've told the doctor I'm willing to try again. I think he will hold of a bit and trust the opinion of the psychiatrist. I had a period about 10 years ago where I tried one, Mirtazapine or Remeron as it's also called (Serotonin and Norepinephrine). It had a tremendous effect at first, but after like 6 to 9 months it felt like they just didn't do anything for me anymore. When I stopped using them I was back to were I first started but with a harder time falling asleep with regularity. It was like my day had 32-34 hours. Eventually I started taking melatonin to help me sleep, and that worked rather well without any noticeable side effects. Living in South Africa for little over 2 years I no longer need aid to sleep as I seemed to regain the 24hour internal clock, even though a mild depression hit me whilst there. That's where I tried Wellbutrin but I noticed no effect whatsoever. 2 years ago I went back on Remeron in the hopes that it would give me that quick temporary boost that I got the first time, but this time I didn't feel anything except that it really messed up my sleep. It will be interesting to see the psychiatrist again, because it's the same guy I saw 10 years ago and who gave me a diagnose, sort of. He thought I had schizoid personality disorder, which in fairness to him, at the time I exhibited all symptoms. But as time has gone by I've shed most of those symptoms. Looking back I think I was hurting so bad that to protect myself I shut down and detached myself completely.

I think it's fair to suggest that if we are on this thread and feel a twitching, jerky motion in our patella-region from the content we read then we should just take a 5 minute break. Anyway, I'm glad it unfolded this way because I enjoyed the more thorough explanation @VILLAMARVand I also went back a few pages and read Stragglers post and was very moved. Yes, this is definitely the case, and it's been a recurring pattern. Every time I think this year is going to be different, but it's not. That's why I've decided to seek help in order to get a job. A proper job that will get me in to a routine, has a good social environment, ideally also including physical activity. I have my own firm and I'm my own boss, and it's clearly not working out for me.

I don't know what it's about. The Ted talk was interesting though. Who doesn't like Cocaine-feed fruit flies, but seriously I don't think we are even remotely close to understanding how these things work and how our brains work. And in these situation whatever works will do, I guess.

Thanks. That looks interesting, getting it right now. I've been watching movies about depression these last few nights. I find it helps a bit to relate and to open up some of those emotions and maybe heal a little bit. list so far is Skeleton Twins, It's Kind of a funny story, A Simple Man, Prozac Nation, The Hours and Side Effects Maybe add 50/50 and Manchester By The Sea to that list too. Any other movies I've missed out on?

Cheers guys, a bit of encouragement goes a long way. I've been through it now enough times that I know I just have to force myself through those first step of action however hard it seems. Thinking back I was utterly helpless when I was young. The emotions were way way too blunt and the dullness and safety of isolation lured me in without me realizing the harm it has over time on a human being. The days moved by slow as death but the years sure flew by. Now I see that need of isolation as a warning sign. My social network has eroded but thankfully I still have supportive family and a few very close friends. Reading about how others struggle with no one to help them is overwhelmingly sad.

Would love to try the save, maybe try and work out why. Personally I think the effect is a bit too much on this years game. The frequency at which a big favorite fumbles at home to relegation fodder is a bit overdone. There are ways to avoid, through squad personality, media, team talk. Busting the complacency bubble without turning them into nervous nellies. Certainly ways to avoid it but yeah. I've started playing defensive mentality at home to shit teams when I feel an upset over the horizon. Usually the team grind and grind then concede from a corner or penalty, but I've actually experienced winning games with 5-6 goals on defensive and contain mentality lately. It should be said I'm beta testing so I'm on a different build but there have been very ME changes of late.

Just thought I'd share a glimpse in to my experiences. If nothing else but to write it down and process it. I think I've posted before but I forget so easily. I've been in and out of depression for the last 16 years.. mostly in. Possibly it's been even longer. Why, I don't know. I survived a lightning strike when I was 11 and some research suggest that can cause permanent changes to personality, long term issues with memory, concentration, mood swings and what have you. But long lasting depression can also cause all of those issue. Sometimes I wonder if I have ADD.. the non-hyper version of it. I hope I figure it out one day. The sense of freedom I would feel without a cloud over me or the constant anxiety. I guess we all have our issues though. Typically I get a boost during summer and then I crash as autumn comes along. Last year I felt like I had a handle on it. I had been going strong since May, keeping to my own forced rules of getting up early no matter what, getting work done every day, getting lots and lots of exercise, spending time outdoors and sticking to my keto diet with intermittent fasting. When November came along and I had finished all my work that lingered from the summer and I was free to take a break for a while my vitality vanished like a balloon poked by a needle. Suddenly it became hard to do the most ridiculously easy things. I went from being able to do 90 min of heavy weights work out to just lying there and being utterly bored and fatigued, not able do to anything. Not even my beloved games can entertain me these days.. I open them up... then close them down. I start a movie or tv show.. but can't follow it as my mind wanders of. I started to self-medicate with alcohol.. when I kinda busted myself in drinking a sip every now and then all day everyday just to stay slightly buzzed all the time, I knew it could potentially get serious. Being that I've been through this many, many times and that so many years have gone by without things changing, I know my patterns and I know that the veil of depression turns lies into truth. I'm aware of every dark corner of misery, shame and guilt. Frankly I'm done with it as I know it's an illness and not something I should blame myself for anymore. Knowing that it would just get worse an worse until it feels utterly hopeless, I somehow mustered whatever energy I could and forced myself to go to the doctor to try and nip it in the bud. I told him I wanted to see a psychiatrist to figure this thing out once and for all, and I implored him to help me to work something out with the work services agency (I don't know the UK equivalent). I also went and got myself one of those blue-light therapy lamps for seasonal affective disorder, forced myself to get some exercise and I've sought out some of the friends I have left to get them to help me go outside a bit more. I'm freaking a bit out about the immediate future, anxiety and all that. I don't really see a possible scenario where I can become happy, well adjusted and so on. On a grander scale I don't see where humanity is going except every country on it's own separate island, 4 years at a time, into a toxic abyss void of meaning, and I feel worse for being a part of it. But I know i see it through depressions foggy eyes and that If I come out on the other side I will look back with clarity and not recognize myself. This last week I've been to the doctor, met a friend for coffee, had a haircut, gone on a hike and made dinner with a friend, played football with mates twice, exercised with weights and on a elliptical multiple times, been in touch with the work services and not touched alcohol. Doesn't sound like much but it's more action then I've seen the last two months combined. I feel a slight boost in my mood as a result so hopefully I can stay on that trajectory and fight of this beast.

The waterpark one was okay and the moms-sitcom one was excellent, I thought. I cringe at musicals though.. I had to turn it off.

Highlights can be seen here

I haven't used it in a while. There's a few reasons for it. The laws have gotten a bit discouraging here... I have to leave town (due to the airport) and stay 150m away from roads and buildings to be able to use it. The license for commercial use cost a bit to get and requires insurance (all in all about £300). A long operation manual need to be written and logs must be kept. As for the drone itself there was a firmware update a good while back which (arguably) caused a lot of 'older' models' gimbal to vibrate when hovering. It's very visible when looking straight at it, but only slightly noticeable on video when hovering. In addition no matter how many times I run it through calibrations I can't get the horizon to stay level on a consistent basis. Short sequences are fixable in post since I record 4k and only use 1080p, but it's a bit annoying and long sequences are unusable due to the horizon tipping from one side to the other over time. I've had it tip over in take off a couple of times so there are some marks and bruises on it so I think sending it in would be a loss for me as they would just blame crashes. Maybe it's my fault.. I don't really know for sure. I got to go on a all expenses covered 3 1/2 week trip to Bahamas as part of a documentary project using it though, so in that sense it was worth it for me If you can get a good deal, sure. If it's just for fun. I had a great time using it at first and experimenting with technques. It's a safe option to go for and a good place to start. Camera quality is below average on today's standard though. These things become obsolete quickly. I wouldn't mind something better, but the Phantom is perfect size and weight that you can bring it everywhere with ease. So I think maybe in a year or two I'll get another one and try again.

Watching Banshee, that moment in season 3

For a moment I thought.. this is bats shit crazy. How did I get here? How am I immersed in this wierd story? Well, I don't know. It's over now but I want more.

Watched the first episode of The OA last night... beautifully shot, enticing mystery, interesting story, all that... then it shifted, and holy mackerel towards the end it struck me that this was fantastic. Was gonna savor it and just watch one episode each night, but now it's 05:36 and I'm 6 episodes deep. Enough said I guess.. love it.

The ending transported me all the way to the shire and that very gay look only Frodo and Sam could share, but thankfully it didn't last long enough to be too awkward and not 30 min like in the movie. It needs a bit of set up, but wouldn't it be just great if Morgan killed Neagan with his broomstick?

How's the save after that Brexit-event, @Daniel? I only got the boring one with no changes except the Bosman-rule no longer applies.

Is that happening to lots of people? Not seen it myself. It is usually a symptom of the saving process being interrupted. So maybe try avoid cloud-saving and make sure you have enough hard drive space locally and then be sure to let it go through the save-process completely (before flipping down the laptop-screen or similar)

Put in new parts in my PC yesterday. It was time, and the MB was acting weird. Went from i5-2500k, 8 Gb/1600mhz to a i7-6700k and 16gb/3000mhz ram Did a test on FM before and after the upgrade where I simulated three weeks. Quickest run through before was 6 min 20 sec With new parts it was 3 min 55 sec then I overclocked the CPU to 4.7ghz which brought it down to 3 min 35 sec. Quite happy with that

Good, cos I need something to binge on these days. Does it remind anyone else of The Shield?

Watching Banshee, I'm 7 episodes in. Another good recommendation by the Villatalkers. Brutal and over the top but I like it.

Upload the save somewhere, let every one have a go

Just to add to what @V01 said, but complacency tends to be a factor in games such as that. Unless you rock the boat a bit your players will go in expecting to win easy. In addition to form and stature, what you said in the post-match team-talk in the prior game and in the pre-match press-conference might add to complacency. If you are up against the bottom teams I've found it's better to upset your team in the final team talk and talk them down to the press a bit.

This one hurt a bit! Awoniyi's shot had not even crossed the line before I went total shut-up-shop-mode, so when Afonso headed in a free kick I was literally jumping and clenching the air. Only to have it all taken away and then further humiliated as my heart sank into my stomach... no other game does this to me. Playing at the The Den for a bit, by the way. Just borrowing, will return it nice and polished.

That's some nice buys. Do you pay most upfront? I want to get into the habit of doing that for the challenge but every time it's just so tempting to slap on that 48 months installment and spend 4 times as much! My guess is you were offered the job due to starting reputation/past experience. Still it sounds a bit daft though. I've changed to a different tactic and things are looking slightly better.. gone from a 442 to a 41221. The latter is more attacking but the anchor man seems to shore things up. I've also turned off all closing down on my defenders. So sick of them rushing out to close down players and leaving a juicy gap behind them. And I've re-done all the corner settings, which were left at default. Result: Two clean sheets in three games. I think cruising through the lower leagues on the back of Ricky Miller made me a bit complacent! FM has always give me a couple of those seasons of two halves every now and then. I don't know what's going on with that.. there must be some underlying processes that add to it. Mostly I guess it's how the opposition approach you, but it can't be that simple. It's interesting though... I'm still testing the latest beta versions and in it you can see opposition teams mentality, shape and players roles, and it's facilitating to see how attacking the AI teams are against me this season compared to earlier season. It's like they think they can walk all over us, which for the most part is true of course. I do that too btw. I always watch a game or a tv show on my 2nd monitor.

First season Ricky Miller-less and it's a real struggle Made it through the Championship with not too much trouble, but now it seems the gap in quality is too big. Or the FM gods are conspiring against me..... I got a £6m budget and £350k wage budget. It was increased by £28m the day before deadline day... but with my poor player knowledge skills it takes like 3-4 weeks to scout a player. The weirdest part though is that there were less players interested in joining then there were when we were was leading the Championship. I guess club and manager reputation is just too low. I could only sign transfer listed players from Championship, League One and Serie B. I even lost out to League One teams in contract negotiations. A couple of days before the window closed I got one of my half decent strikers injured for 2-3 months. Managed to get a loan in, but first game after the deadline my main striker broke his foot.. out 6-7 months! Each game is a hard watch... I just can't get them to score like they used too and the opposition run through my defence like a hot knife through butter. Managed a 6-0 loss at home to Burnley somehow. Goalkeeper might as well not have shown up. But there's the odd undeserved win and lucky draws. We're conceding by far the most amount of goals from corners, free kicks and penalties in the league, and have more red cards then any other team. On the plus side, since I haven't spent much on transfers or wages the club is projected to have £92m at the end of the season, so even if relegated I guess it worked out for the better.