As a sufferer of anxiety I thought I'd post this here to see if any of you guys can give me a bit of inspo. Basically, what are your hobbies?
Since I left school I've struggled to commit to anything and/or lost interest. Where I may have had an opportunity in a particular job/past time I've turned it down because of my anxiety. This compounded over time has worn me out and I tend to not see it as a hobby anymore.
As an example, I bought an electronic drum kit a few years ago when I was 21. Straight away I thought I'm not joining a band because I'm not good enough and I'll never be as good as some people, everybody who's skilled starts when they're really young. I've gone through phases and managed to keep playing very casually on and off over the years. But deep down I know it's not me. And I know I'm being hard on myself but I'm forcing myself these days to play and thus not enjoying it.
When I was younger I used to get home from school/college and spend my days playing games with my mates. Not a care in the world. I didn't feel like I had to impress anybody or become brilliant at a particular skill. I did my day at school/college/work then got home and played games.
These days and more so the past few years I seem to have got it into my head I need to be GREAT at something worthwhile. I need to have a particular hobby I can master and show off to people. It's such an arrogant mindset because as I've proved to myself I'm not prepared to put the work in.
On a positive note, I've just landed a really good job and I'm looking forward to starting that. However, these spare hours I'm left with I just want to spend relaxing without being envious of people who can play an instrument, speak different languages or be the size of Arnie.
I'm not sure what I'm getting at here, I'm just a little lost. But as I said at the beginning of my post I'm always intrigued by other peoples hobbies and interests and how they balance it with their work life.