I understand. Once you decide that you want something, then unless you get it, you ain't gonna be a happy bunny. I'd advise taking a step back, look at the form since reading, indulge in some optimism based on Kodjia and Jedi returning along with Snodgrass - and then come to a sensible, cool-headed reassessment of where the villa is going. If you still think we are completely doomed, and that Xia is out to make your life a misery, then possibly, it is too late for you my friend.