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  1. For all his domestic success, you can't really argue that he hasn't taken both Bayern and City backwards in the CL. He just doesn't come close or gets battered these days.
  2. I definitely don't think it's a case of being too shallow in that sense. I'm far more attracted to a personality than I am to looks or anything like that. My ex is 48 in a few months, so it's not like I'm just after the super hot 21 year olds. It was her warmth and her soul that made me fall for her. Speed dating just sounds like a disaster waiting to happen. I dread to think what it'd do to my self esteem if I walked away without a number!
  3. And 9 times out of 10, the initial penalty is scored, and Watford as a club lose out on hundreds of millions all because the ref got conned by someone diving. Saying VAR is shit because it won't allow shit decisions to be made doesn't really make much sense. If VAR was around 10 years ago, we potentially do the double in 2009/10.
  4. I've had this said to me a lot though. It's really not as simple as getting dates, I just don't get them. I spent a decade on various sites and apps, trying to talk to women. I didn't get a single reply, or match or date out of it. It's not like I haven't tried. I really dread to think how many messages I've sent out over the years, or how many women I've talked to. It's frightening. And while some may say the constant rejection helps you get used to it, it doesn't really. It just makes the next time that much harder.
  5. I've always had therapists ask me similar kinds of stuff, the suggestion being I don't value myself or that I'm overly critical of myself, but I really don't think that's the case. I also believe that this "loving yourself" has little real relevance to how I feel. I'm actually happy with who I am. I do overthink a lot, which can be quite stressful at times, but it also makes me aware of everything I'm doing, all the time. I look after myself, I go running, go to the gym and eat well. I don't drink alcohol, don't smoke, don't do drugs and rarely have caffeine. I make an effort to put a smile on at work, to be funny, to try and put a smile on the faces of my colleagues. I know I'm good at my job, I work hard. I think I'm a decent person, I try not to judge others, I always make an effort to be kind and help out if I can. I'm moving in to my own house at the start of next month, a beautiful new build and I never thought I would own a home, certainly not on my own, but I've worked hard for it. Overall, inwardly, I'm happy with who I am. I don't think there is a whole lot I would change, that can be changed, otherwise I would want to look entirely differently. I would like to be a bit more confident, and I would like to get rid of my anxiety issues - though medication has already helped in that area. But overall, I do think I'm a decent person. But what does it matter? I hardly have any friends. I've had 3 or 4 best friends throughout my life, all of whom found me very disposable and seemed to drop me out of nowhere to go off with their new social group. I've had 1 girlfriend, who also found it easy to just drop me like that and remove me from her life. How can I possibly feel I have value? It doesn't matter how highly I feel in myself when nobody else does. It's like having a degree in something, but nobody wants to employ you - it essentially makes the degree irrelevant. We're social creatures. Having friends and relationships is what life is about. At the moment I'm waking up alone and depressed, going through work, coming home being alone and depressed. For what? So I can have a new house to be alone and depressed in? I'm 32 this year, I've had one relationship which clearly I failed at. A relationship that was all down to her chasing me and wanting us to get together. That's unlikely to happen again, and given my track record of talking to/approaching/messaging women, I hardly think it's likely to happen again.
  6. It's hit me like a train again. I thought I'd gotten over the breakup, I was definitely improving and starting to feel normal again. I woke up on Saturday morning and couldn't get out of bed, I couldn't do anything.. The same on Sunday. Then again yesterday, and today. That's 2 more days of pay I'm missing, and I won't be shocked if I don't feel like going in tomorrow. I think it's the realisation, at least in my mind, that I'm never going to be happy again. Reaching my age having never had a date is quite hard to deal with in the first place. Having such a connection with someone so instantly was a nice feeling, a feeling that lead to friendship and then more. Over a year with that person, you'd think you'd have some impact on them. But it's been 2 months since the breakup and she hasn't reached out at all. I've not messaged her because I don't want to bother her. But she told me that we'll always be friends, I've been the best friend she's ever had and that I did nothing wrong in the relationship - that it just didn't work. And yet, here I am without having any contact from her. What does that say about me? That despite doing nothing wrong, she doesn't want a trace of me in her life? The first person I ever had close to me feels this way about me. It took me this long to find someone, I've tried the whole online dating thing, I've tried the apps, I've tried joining social things, but none of it worked. The loneliness I'm feeling now is how I felt before I met her. The worst part now is that I know I feel so depressed due to being that lonely, and I know that it may very well be an ever lasting feeling as I don't think I'm capable of finding a partner. I can't get out of bed. I don't want to get out of bed. I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way. Seeking help is so entirely pointless. Just a string of doctors telling me to see a bunch of therapist who subscribe me with various meds. All of which is a complete waste of time.
  7. I don't think he's rubbish, but Kepa doesn't do anything at all to justify such a huge price tag. You look at a keeper like Alisson who does make outstanding saves, great shot stopper and very commanding - Kepa just isn't in his league.
  8. Ferrari won't achieve anything with Vettel in the car, certainly if they keep pandering to him.
  9. Certainly areas for improvement, but overall we look very good.
  10. McGinn not good enough to get in that side? Mental. San Marino keeper did make a few good saves, but even then Scotland never really looked like creating much generally.
  11. The quality of defending in this game was really embarrassing, considering the level the sides involved are supposed to be at.
  12. Meanwhile Ronaldo not in the Juve squad for the first time this season. Lose 2-0.
  13. It makes no sense though at that stage of a season. Ferrari have been hilariously mismanaged for a few years though, and mentally Vettel is toast. DR didn't move for this season though, more for 2021. Similar to Lewis going to a medicore Mercedes team.
  14. FIrst race of the season, in a battle for 4th/5th, and Ferrari still wouldn't let Leclerc race Vettel. There's absolutely no way they can tell me he just couldn't get by him. Real disappointing weekend from Gasly, hoping it was a one off.
  15. kurtsimonw

    Divers

    I went to Walsall-Portsmouth the other night. The Portsmouth right back went down in the second half every time a Walsall player was anywhere near him, and got a free kick every time. HE could've been sent of 3 times over for diving.
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